this week has been a confluence of emotions.

Happy: I am a 姐妹 for my friend's wedding and get this! - the 中文 intrepreter for her solemnisation. Since me is so kantang, I am surprised my friend gave me the role. But I am rising up to the challenge. Good thing got script though I still have to read out a whole bible passage in mandarin! and I have never even touched a Chinese bible before!

Sad: my grandma is in hospital. when i visited her, she looked different from the last time I saw her which was 5 months back. time flies, i wonder how much time I have with her. It's awful when it takes an incident to reunite 2 people.

Guilty: It took 2 outsiders to remind me of the most important thing in life. When we were leaving the hospital, my grandma's maid refused to leave. She was holding my grandma's hands and talking to her though my grandma repeated the same thing over and over. She happily played along. She fed my grandma. Advised us on my grandma's favourite foods. Knew all the controls of the hospital bed. Patiently coax my grandma to take her medicine. Teared when i finally tore her away from the bed.

while waiting in the taxi line at the hospital, my childhood friend and current neighbour to my grandma chided me for not spending time with my grandma.

I am guilty as charged. My punishment is that my grandma only recognises the maid now. Not her children, not her grandchildren. An outsider who has been with her a mere 10 months. I'm guessing it's not too late still. Grandma, get well soon.

min & xin: I really really can't wait to catch up with you!!!

Su: dunno what has been going on with you. i hope you are still enjoying your job and that things are good with hyder.

Dai Lo, Yee Lo, Sam Gor: We really really really should meet soon. Sorry I couldn't join in for Guildhouse. and even more sorrys that i can't join you guys for Christmas! This is like the first Christmas in 3 years that I can't join in. But I know I can rely on Zebby's camera to capture all the heartwarming/scandalous moments!

Rach: Enjoying your days of being a 'housewife'?

Lin & Lea: I am so glad we managed to catch up even if it was very brief!

Kay & Boon: I dunno what's going on with you all right now but hope things are well... I should write to you all soon...

Faith: I wanna catch that girl before she gets busier and busier as it gets nearer and nearer to Christmas!

i am so wary of giving out my handphone number nowadays. once it's out, it's free for all. people call you to sign up for credit cards, insurance, lucky draws, yoga classes etc... at least i can wave them off with 'I am NOT interested.' and 'No, I DO NOT have anyone to recommend.'

the ones that gets my goat are nonsensical work calls that i can't hang up on. i perfectly understand if there is an urgent issue/problem that needs to be resolved immediately. but if you can SMS at unearthly hours or weekends, that means it's not URGENT and SHOULD NOT require a response by the next day.

eg, 'please plan a menu for 5 and email me tomo'. 'please meet me at 11.30am for a meeting.' There is nothing wrong with the last message except it came in at 12.30am midnight the same day. i hung around for more than half a day and no mention of a meeting. all of a sudden at midnight, said person decides to have one tomorrow.

it is all so convenient. just send a SMS. the other party might not reply now but you can be sure he/she will see it the next day when it's time to leave for work. what riles me is the nonchalent manner it's done, the expectation that it will be obeyed and the lack of respect for after-work hours. if you can SMS, why can't you email? I can deal with it when I get into office. Or maybe it's cos there is no internet access in the office.

but I am a professional. I deal with it. I make things good. and one day ...

because i sleep at unearthly hours, my brain cells aren't fully charged. i end up like Jason Bourne - no memory, lots of frustration and anger. The guy just needs to stop leaping from building to building and speeding down highways to sleep. It's like what the old people always say 'Once the kid has too much fun in the day, they make a big fuss at night.'

So step 1 in my 'change my life' plan is to sleep at least 8 hours a day. i hope to get back my skin back to glowing condition again, without makeup.

* this sleep plan in starting to sound like a new year's resolution. one that is made but never kept. 2007 may be over but there is 2008 to change my life right?*

i wants a haircut. again.

当你听不出我的心情时.. 我变得更低落. 或许是我太自私, 眼前只有自己的问题.

真希望自己变回小孩。让‘大人’把我的世界添上彩虹。画里头, 我可以在脸画上笑容。永远保持快乐。

i got me 2 pairs of shoes from Pazzion cos' Deb has $20 off with her credit card.
*aside, Pazzion shoes really last me a long while. Charles & Keith confirm conk out on me after 3 months. Pazzion shoes are twice more expensive but way more lasting plus they have nice designs!*

a black pair with bling bling crystals. very classy and chic, perfect for all the wedding dinners i have to attend but that's an excuse. ;)


the soles even come with a nice flowery pattern!


at my last count of frequently worn shoes, i have 2 grey, 1 black and 1 beige so i decided to sprinkle some colour to my shoe wardrobe.


pumps with a rounded tip are very in now.

i thought it was just me. turns out 3 other people share my view. and i am so gleeful about it.
- laughing all the way -